Missing Joshua Michael

It is so hard to believe a year has almost gone by since the last day that I thought all was well with my baby. I remember so vividly the events of last year, as if they just happened last week. Feeling him inside of me, thinking that all was well.

August 17, 2005 was the day I found out he had died and August 18 was the day we had the D&C.

Oh how I miss that little boy of mine. I wonder daily what he would be doing right now if he had been able to stay, my little tiny sweetheart with Down's Syndrome. Would he have teeth yet? Would he be smiling? Would he prefer sweet potatoes or bananas?

Joshua, I love you so much and miss you with every breath I take. I know that Heaven is wonderful and that you are doing well, but I sure do miss having you near me.

all my love,

Mommy